Fortune for 2009

I know this is kinda late. But .... better than never! hahahaha

The EARTH Horse's luck outlook in 2009 raises some concern over health issue but predicts a fairly stable year in terms of financial matters. Everything else appears reasonably smooth with a mixture of lightweight successes and small obstacles, all of which this 31 year old takes in his / her stride. The Earth Horse is generally slower than the other Horse signs, both physically and mentally, being more akin to the Farm Horse than the Mustand or the Arab galloping free in the mountains or the desert sands.

In 2009, this Horse will use the stable year to consolidate his / her affairs. Attention is not necessarily directed at work or career exclusively, but also on family and other side passion. This is not a Horse greatly inspired by some noble aspiration; instead this Horse plays it safe, taking care of essentials but making do with no trimmings. There is scrupulousness in dealing with colleagues and loved ones who appreciate his / her way of managing, so they can be depended on to take care of the details. In some cases they will be the ones to see through this Horse's projects to completion.

There is however ambivalence about the Earth Horse that comes across very clearly as the year progresses. As he / she grows in confidence and as professional opportunities emerge, there wil be create in his / her mind the conflict between going all out in pursuit of success versus a hidden yearning for the carefree life.

THe Horse is blessed by the Golden Deity in 2009 but is also sandwiched between the Star of Big Luck and the Star of Yearly Conflict, in this case conflicting the Tai Sui. While all four other horses cope with their dilemmas with an enviable clarity of thinking, the Earth Horse is decidedly pulled in two direcions. The desire for economic security and wellbeing for family is pitted against a desire to shrug off responsibilities and be a free spirit. This is not a delemma which many people understand. Even the Earth Horse itself might find it hard to find the words to describe the feelings that are causing him / her anguish.

In many ways, this is one manifestation of the mixed outlook indicated in the Spirit Essence. But in truth, this 31 year old horse is too young to turn contemplative or become too introspective. Instead, it is better to harness the renewed strength which floods his / her body in 2009 and use it to reinvigorate the life he / she is building. It is a good idea to invite a golden deity into the home, as this will have a stabilizing effect. The best is to invite an image of this Horse's protective deity into the home and on the work desk. This will improve the clarity of thought and reduce the indecisiveness that is a problem for much of this year.

Feelings

Suddenly just thought of it....

I really don't have feelings? or I dare not to show it out? Is it that difficult to find someone to love me or to love?

Finding someone to love or being love is not easy. Someone who is there to be with you when you are down, someone you will first think of when you want to enjoy things with.

Afraid of getting hurt, i have been holding back alot of things. I've been hiding alot of things from people. 

I was hurt before, don't wish to get hurt again, therefore been hiding my true feelings. 

Accident 15 Mar 2009

It has been months since i last updated my blog... cos i really dunno what to blog about... been busy with work, volunteer work and also busy being sick.

For this year, I don't think i have updated my horoscope for 2009. not a good year for me.... maybe my next posting will be my luck for 2009.

On my way back home, saw this accident. It really freak me out. I saw the bike skidded and fell infront of my eyes. Just because of that stupid car trying to turn right on a green light. THere is this bike already HORN a few times, the car stopped, then carry on to turn. In the end the bike have to brake and skidded. He fell on the left and skidded for about a few meters.....

I wanted to go forward to help, but feet just grounded... not moving... in my mind "quick, run and help that guy..." i seriously stood there and not reacting...

Just nice this ambulance passed by so stopped to check on that biker.

This is the car problem. The biker already horned at that car, but that car still carry on turn right on green light! What is the problem for the driver?!?!? so what if he drives a car?